Saturday, December 31, 2011

New Year's Eve

It's the cusp of a new year and there couldn't be a more appropriate time to observe a moment of silence to reflect on yet another journey completed. Revisiting this year's activities and moments has compelled me to reflect on both sad and happy memories: the bumps encountered and curve balls thrown; the thrill of just living life and the surprising lessons learned.

At the start of the year, not one to make New Year resolutions, I made a simple list of goals/activities to accomplish by year's end. It included getting a graduate job, taking tango lessons, improving my swimming, travelling to a European country I'd never visited and joining a charity among other things. However, by mid-year, the list was all but forgotten until I happened upon it one grey, November morning. Seeing it made me smile and confirmed I wasn't stagnating. It had provided a picture of my progression.

For the better part of the year, I was distressed over being unemployed and felt there was a missing piece of the puzzle. I had spent countless hours applying for jobs, preparing for interviews while watching life pass me by, because I thought if I couldn't make any headway in this one area of my life, then nothing else was worth celebrating. 

Faulty thinking, I know.
When Life Knocks You Down, Do a Cartwheel
Photo: Shayera
George Bernard Shaw was dead right when he said, “Youth is wasted on the young”, and it wasn't until I traveled on holidays to Portugal in December that I realized the meaning of those words. There was a feeling of peace, joyfulness and fearlessness that Portugal gifted me, as well as the comfort of knowing that the 'downs' in life are necessary to help me learn, wizen up and arrive at an 'up'.

As I write this post, I still am one of the millions of unemployed graduates, but I refuse to torture myself with that thought or allow that reality suck the joy out of my life. Occasionally in the past, I would say to myself, "I'm going to get on with life when I get my dream job." Well, I'm no longer bound by that misguided notion, which is why I have started this blog. And even though I'm unsure where it will lead me, I’m excited about embracing life's little uncertainties.

Although 2012 brings a new set of realities and challenges, like going back to my home country in search of a job, I won't be frightened by the future. I remain hopeful and unafraid because I know, in my heart of hearts, that everything will work out well in the end; and if it doesn't, then it isn't the end.  

On that note, I wish you all a lively, prosperous and joyful New Year!

Update: Less than two months after returning to Nigeria, I got a job. It happened so fast! I had my interview mid-March and started work last week of March. Needless to say, I am elated about embarking on this new chapter in my life. It finally did work out in the end...